The past will always be in me.

News..

2009-11-17T10:50:00.000+08:00

17 Nov 2009
SINGAPURA
HILANG DI LAUT

Ibu kerap nasihati anak usah ke laut
Oleh

Nurul Dayana Simangoon

SETIAP kali anak remajanya pergi ke laut untuk bermain papan luncur, Cik Hakimah Abdul Latiff meleterinya kerana bimbang akan keselamatannya.

Namun, Muhammad Nazim Ismail, 18 tahun, tidak ambil pusing kerana terlalu gemar kegiatan sukan air itu.

Lewat petang kelmarin, bekas pelajar Sekolah Northlight itu hilang setelah dikatakan cuba mengejar bola 'misteri' di pantai East Coast, dekat restoran McDonald's.

Sehingga akhbar ini dicetak malam tadi, beliau belum ditemui.

Usaha mencari oleh sekitar 30 anggota Pasukan Pertahanan Awam Singapura (SCDF) dari 6.32 petang hingga 3 pagi semalam tidak membuahkan hasil.

Pasukan penyelam angkatan laut dan polis menyambung usaha itu pada 12.40 petang semalam tetapi menghentikannya sekitar empat jam kemudian.

Nazim dikatakan sedang bermain luncur bersama rakan karib yang juga jirannya, Muhammad Raihan Nin-Abar, sekitar 6.15 petang apabila beliau ternampak bola berwarna putih terapungapung di laut dekat batu penahan ombak.

Beliau dikatakan cuba mendapatkan bola yang dipukul ombak kuat itu dan berenang hingga ke tengah laut, kurang 20 meter dari pantai.

Nazim, yang dikatakan pandai berenang, cuba berpatah balik tetapi menghadapi masalah akibat ombak kuat.

Raihan, juga 18 tahun, yang sedang menjaga papan luncur mereka, lalu lari untuk menyelamatkan Nazim, yang tenggelam timbul, tetapi terlambat kerana beliau telah ditelan ombak.

Nazim, yang tinggal di Bedok Reservoir, pergi ke pantai itu bersama keluarga Raihan. Apabila cuaca mendung sekitar 6.10 petang, mereka berehat di McDonald's namun Nazim dan Raihan terus berada di laut kerana masih mahu bermain luncur.

Cik Hakimah, 42 tahun, berkata anak keduanya daripada tiga adik-beradik itu, yang mesra dengan panggilan 'Sakai', mungkin terlalu penat kerana tidak tidur sejak beberapa hari lalu garagara keluar bersama kawan.

Dengan suara terputus-putus beliau berkata;

'Sudah berkali-kali saya melarang Nazim bermain luncur di laut kerana takut dia diapa-apakan, tapi apa boleh buat anak saya dah besar. Dah 18 tahun. Saya tak boleh menghalangnya.

'Lagipun, kali ini dia keluar dengan jirannya yang telah dianggap sebagai keluarga angkat, bukan dengan budak jahat. Entah dari mana pula asalnya bola yang dikejar itu.

'Mungkin ajalnya sudah tiba, saya pasrah atas apa yang berlaku.'

Nazim sedang menunggu untuk dipanggil menjalani Perkhidmatan Negara (NS) Mac depan.

Raihan, yang kelihatan masih trauma, berkata: 'Saya masih menyalahkan diri saya kerana jika saya menolak ajakannya untuk membeli papan lungsur pagi semalam mungkin perkara ini tidak akan terjadi.'

May he rest in peace. This news actually widened my eyes. He's someone i knew. Not much but talked to him before. Lepak together before. He live near my hse area and he's my cousin's chilhood friend. Sadly he left at such a young age. I know him as 'sakai'. Lets us all pray for the best for his soul.

Happy Birthday..

2009-11-16T16:59:00.000+08:00

Nuratika Naim.

Happy 19th Birthday babe...

Stay hawt always! ;D

Enjoy your teens life to the fullest..

Movies = Great

2009-11-16T16:47:00.000+08:00

The end is Near.

HEYYY!!!! I rate this movie 10/10!! Super great! I mean ya nobody knows what's gonna happen in the year 2012 but woahoaw..credits to the directors. Watched this at my "used to be" workplace at 12:45AM. Theres this inconsiderate FATASS in the cinema siting beside me n my guy n..he was DAMN IRRITATING.. imagine someone BIG sitting beside u, with such a bass voice..talking or perhaps MUMBLING loudly beside you, while you trying to watch a great movie that u paid 10 bucks for it??! At that moment, i was wishing to be BEN10 and change myself to be 'something' so that i could swing that fatass out of the hall!! but....this world aint cartoon world soo...my hero save the world =D Fir was super boiling and got super irritated that he shouted right infront of that fatass face, " FUCK!! SHUT UP!!". hahahaha!! member teros muker cuak siak...hahaha cute kan mataer aku yg kuros tu mengamok kat si gemok babi. That fatass zipped his mouth throughout. Even some couples behind us laughed at him.

Nut up or shut up.

Watched this in my psp =P

He downloaded it for me. Its a funny movie. And do follow the rules if you wanna survive. You'll understand what im trying to say if you've watched it.

Don't see it alone.

One word to describe this movie..SPOOKY.

Watched this in psp too :D

Alright i spent the whole weekend day and night with my baby. Thanks for all that moments and thanks for all your treat. Love u syg. Muacks! ;D

oh no...

2009-11-04T16:27:00.000+08:00

Project due ~~5th Nov~~..

Tommorrow is our group's presentation and we are super not ready as usual. Its like damn i dont know what to do. Tried to do some researches but to no avail. HOW? :(

The only time i could do my project is during lesson as i dont own a comp at home. My group members do it only when they reach home. How can i do it then? I dont wanna give this as reasons of me not takin part. I dun wanna shake my leg and put responsibilities on others. Boifren buy me a lappy..pweety please?

Sorry kwn2 i cant do much..

Movie.

2009-11-02T16:55:00.000+08:00

I've watched this movie. Damn, its super touching! Recommended! The moral of the story is..Be brave to fight for your right. Watched it with hym. And its the first tyme we watched a drama together. Its always action, horror and violence movies. Its unbelievable that he cudn't control his tears. He cried even before i did. He's ain't no Heartless :D ANYWAY, hotdog is faved!!!

See this picture above? Lack of chilhood i guess. Hahaha.

Ni la ape si budak tua ni buat kat umah slalu. Takde keje play around with his grandma's wheelchair in the house.

Okae hoppers i gotta go now..nak shoppin with gurlfrens :D

Liar.

2009-10-22T12:52:00.000+08:00

SEE! This is the reason why its HARD of me to TRUST you!!

FUCKING LIAR! DAMN YOU!

It was just about to start and something stopped me :(

Why? I tried my best to trust you and you did this to me.

Now tell me is this fair?

God, help me :( Please show me the truth.

What am i supposed to do? Lie after Lie.

Things will never END.

It hurts. Im dying.

Trust.

2009-10-21T16:19:00.001+08:00

Trust.

I gotta give hym some trust. But its hard. Im the kind of person hu wud easily fergive but never ferget. U cant be blaming me fer this as you shud noe whut you had done to me. It hurts me deeply. i dont wish to 'ungkit' things but whut happened yesterday made me realise that you are really trying your best to gain my trust of you. Trying to prove to me that you never wanna repeat history itself. Im sorry and im glad you understand. Ive mentioned to you earlier not to blame me if im gonna be a control queen after whut happened. And im deeply sorry that i had to get your friend involved for the incident yesterday. I just need some fact. It hurts to see you kneeled down infront of me with your tears flowing just because i dont trust you. I hope its not some kind of act. I love you...

: Trust is the only thing left to make it complete.

Troublesome.

Whut the hell! i gotta attend some principle talk dis friday at ITE Dover??! O.o

And its like only fer the N1 students. Kecoh uh! Sad2 cant join my KO fer some event held at west coast on that day.

Okayy thats all fer today..

Daddy sucks.

2009-10-15T11:59:00.001+08:00

Could you just stop naggin the whole 24/7??
You nag like a motha, you counsel me like a counseller, you talk like a lawyer
and the best thing about you is, you're perfectly an UNresponsible father.

My ears just cant bear with it anymore, AND ma head, EXPLODING SOON!

SHUT THE FUCK UP

MOTHA FUCKA!

Pranoia..

2009-09-18T18:59:00.000+08:00

As I love Him..

I Got a job:) so i wont be slackin at home wastin my time wit ma PSP haha. Bored la. Today is his last day for his NS life. happy for him! Get a good job soon kaes. *Property Agent* (Bole blanje me shoppin..haha).

I've been hiding from you things that i noe i wont dare to tell. I noe its wrong but i just cant stop. Feelins cant be stop..But whut i can assure you is This Heart it Beats, Beats Only For You. And i hope you are not keepin anitin from me. These few things that i figured out lately makes me afraid that i might lose you and afraid that u wud end up wit her back again. You dont have to deny that she's way better off den me. I Can see it for myself dear. In terms of appearance, age, the way she wins ur heart, i noe i cant win her. I noe deep inside, at least a small space in dere, u still have feelins for her. Since we went thru alot together for 1 year plus, and that i noe u very well inside out, You have my trust...

Only GOD noes how and whut i feel :)

something is wrong..

2009-08-06T21:52:00.000+08:00

What's happenin to blogger?? this suckss..it's been long since i update and u noe y? i can't post pics/videos here! FCUK!!! I got loads of pics to post since like last week?? Can anyone tell me what's happening? did u guys have prob posting on blogger too? Grrrr..

Btw, i dun really have the mood to update due to this prob. But i had fun today wit ma cliques. They are the greatest. :) Thanks Ika for the superb Secret Recipe treat! And not to forget Azyan, for the Pizza Hut treat. Altho its such a rush fer me, i enjoyed that tyme wit u guys.

Off to Woodlands wit Fahmi to mit my cuzzy. Watch movie. 'Jangan Pandang Belakang Congkak'. I seriously thot it wud be a lame show but it turn out to be something hilarious tho.

Haish..Im so sorry readers if my post today is a page full of boredom. Sad lurrh can't upload all the pics! I GTG! Somebody PLEASE TELL ME WHAT'S HAPPENING TO BLOGGER?!

New Hair Cut

2009-07-29T11:29:00.003+08:00

SHORT HAIR!! ;D

Sorry for long not updating but i just got nothing to post about..haha! Btw, GTG! :P going pizza hut now..Azyan blanjer..haha..org tngh baek tu tkmu kacaw..

He've changed

2009-07-16T11:15:00.000+08:00

I've got not much tears left for you. I'll just go with the flow hoping that you won't go off limits.

Few things that makes me paranoid and suspicious. You got easily irritated by me nowadays. You can no more accept me for who i am. You dont care anymore of my whereabouts. You dont do small simple things to make me happy anymore.(Pick me up after school, ask me out.)You do it only after ive pointed out your mistakes. If you were to ask me out, it wud be because you nid someone to accompany you to find your things. You most of the time raised your voice at me. You no longer respect me and even my family. You tak ethings too seriously. You put small matters to big matters. You dont joke around anymore to make me laugh. You, I no longer hear sweet phrases from your lips. Phrases like, 'I love you,syg', 'i miss you', 'i wanna marry you', 'i wont let you go', 'you're my everything', 'you're dhe best that i've known', ' you're always pretty in my eyes', 'i never regret noein and loving you..'. You've changed..

Yesterday,

Pulled a long strand of hair from his shirt.(He's bald). It cant be mine as we hav not did *anything yet and we just met. :(

He confused me with someone else. :(

Him: You, i didnt get to install the game 'Sims' that you like in your psp. Sorry.

Me: It's ok lah. Anyway since when did i like the game 'sims'?? I never even played that game before.

Him: You told me before you like it and that you ever play it wit your ps2 at home.

Me: HUHH??

Him: Eh? was it you? or?? Haha.(He can still laugh)

I was a lil lost for a moment but still tat makes me suspicious and damn paranoid. :(

I also told him that we wont be able to mit each other till monday. He'll be werkin tmr and im off to m'sia on fri till sunday.

He, wit no feelins said, its only gonna be four days what. He's the one who usually miss me alot.

I ask him, "arent you gonna miss me?". But he raised his voice and said,"We an still mit on monday siaa you!!"

Haish can't take it anymore. Im getting tired of all this..

Inside Joke

2009-07-16T01:36:00.000+08:00

-Isn't it irritating??

-Thingy ning ngining!

HAHAHA! inside joke..

kae todae im like 5 mins slow most of dhe tyme..Ika hav to say things repeatedly..haha!

Me: Imagine kte (me,yan n ika) pakai sluardlm pat beach.

Fahmi: Eyh okae perh pompan pakai sluardlm.

Me: Okae ko kater? yelar mmg ok fer some ppl but imagine 'kite' yg pakai and its like 'thingy ning ngining'.

Yan: Eyh ade bunyi eyh? Haha.

Me: Mestilah. 'thingy ning ngining!'

(me n yan shakin n holdin our hips while sayin thingy ning ngining)

Hpefullie Bf picks me up aftr sch todae.

Aiite peeps, i gtg :)

(Btw, i came to sch on tyme todae. for dhe ferst tyme? :) )

ECP

2009-07-14T04:26:00.000+08:00

Went ECP last sat, 11 July and went baq sun,12 July. BBQ!! :D

Things don't really happen dhe way i expected. Due to dhe bad bad weather. And due to some ppl's behaviour.

It's a half fun and half shyt moments.. :(:

Bf Sucks that two days.

Before i even got out of ma house he already gav me shyts. Wad's this? Its suppose to be fun but tts hw u spoiled my day?

Bf: U, PSP takde game taw.

Me: Takde game? K den takya bwk k.

Bf: ...(Silence)

Me: Hello??

Bf: Sial larh u! I dengar sakit ati siak!

Me: Huh?

Pup! He den hung up dhe fne..

Like wth siaa? I was fcukin lost and pissed off! That PSP is actually a gift from hym to me and he thot of givin it to me on tt pit day. BUT, fcuk he was from yishun and have to carry alot of things. Since he said tt theres no games in the PSP so i thot he cud just gave me other daes. Im bein gud thinkin tt it might be troublesome fer hym wit alot of things to carry. BUT this is wad i get. Haish sad larr..

Off to ECP wit adeq and Kak Ian(God sister). Ok its like oni dhe 3 of us carryin super lots of heavy stuffs. Others cumin late cos of their own reasons soo we got no choice but to be dhe ferst to head fer dhe pit. At ECP, wind was super strong till like we have to mke sure things wont flyover. Den came BF and hys parents. Gosh! we cant even start bbq-ing..dhe rain went on and off and it seriously spoiled our day. we sat in dhe tent waitin fer dhe others to come. We started oni when evryone came.(dhe rain is still on n off -.-)

One more incident tt seriously irritates me! Adeq's 'Ex'! Fcukin irritatin! He has notin got to do wit us animre, he ALREADY gave shyts to ma sis and he still dare kept callin and textin me non-stop askin for a favour..guess wad? He asked whether we cud help hys fren buy them drinks(Beer/Liquor). Isin't it RUDE?? I chose to just ignore him at ferst but when ma own sis pissed me off! As a sis hu cares and have been helpin dhe both of dem all dis while, she just literally scold me sayin that i got notin got to do wit dem. Like WTH!! It Hurts okae wen ppl dont see dhe gud things tt we've done fer dem. At tt moment, without thinking, i text her 'ex', scolded hym upside dwn, tld hym not to text ma num agaen!(Aku takde kene mengene perr!) After dis, Go find ur own fcukin ways to ctc wit adeq. Hmmph!

Overall, evritin went just ok. notin special :(. Its mre of boredom and Fahmi is like, "Anyone drinking?? I'm like Amsterdam, Amsterdam from just now." Haha! Pitied hym so tld Bf to join hym. Dhe 3 of us went 7 ELEVEN to get some Amsterdam. Left Dearest Zee.(She was on the fne all dhe wae lurhh -.-)Btw saw Irfan dere. It's been long. Went baq and drank. PUII!! it suckks! i prefer liquor can? To me beer stinks and its superr eeww! 2 sips of it mkes me wanna puke.

When its reachin mornin, most of us slept. In dhe mornin, Most headed hme too.

THANKS ZEE FER COMIN AND HOPE U DONT REGRET IT. SORRY.

THANKS FAHMI FER COMIN, ENTERTAININ US AND THANKS FER HELPIN!

Both of you, sorry tt our pit sucks. join us agaen some days aiite!

Others left go fer a swim and headed home at nyte. Planned to bring Bf to Hosp, He was sick and slept most of dhe tyme :(. Plan cancelled cos its gettin late.

Home sweet Home.

(pics to be uploaded soon)

Fcuked up!

2009-07-10T19:45:00.000+08:00

Just A Short Message For Someone,

Hell Ya! i've made up ma decision to stop wastin my Fcukin tyme. Hurtin ma own Feelins. Fcuk Shyt fyne if you dont fcukin care. I dont fcukin nid anitin from you animore. and yarh you wont even care. Thanks so much. Ima not bein 'emosi' here. But, I just got no werds to describe you. I've been ignoring people's reaction and werds of you. To me, ima just dont wanna lost contact and dont wanna hate you. What past is past. You cam e and you go as you like. I swear i treat u as a friend but i guess u're tryin to get rid of me. I kept Fcukin tellin you to just tell me dhe truth if you dont want me to even exist in your lyfe. I dont fcukin understand you. SO YUP! ima not gonna exists in your life animore aiite? I guess thats what you've been wanting just that i dun fcukin realise it. What the Fcuk is wrong? You Exists wen i dun want you to. You disappear wen i expect you to. I have put aside all dhe past and treat you just as a fren. Entahlah! aku tak paham kaw uh! tak sudi cakap jadi aku tak buang mase. Kalau tak layan, kater aku 'acksyen'. Ko kip cakap aku 'acksyen' so aku fikir theres no reason fer me to ignore you. But wen i tried to kip in touch, you just make me wait and felt like a Dumbass waitin fer a person who is not Fcukin interested. Thanks ya. You will never understand...

Nokia N97

2009-07-07T15:37:00.000+08:00

Soo Sorry readers fer not updatin..

Aniways, can i have dis?? Pleash..

NOKIA N97

Along with a tilting 3.5" touch display, QWERTY keyboard and a fully customizable home screen.The Nokia N97 also has direct access to the huge catalogue of music in the Nokia Music Store. With multiple high-speed connectivity options and 32GB of storage (up to 48GB using a microSD card) it is possible to directly download and store tens of thousands of songs on the handset. And you can listen to your favourite music on the Nokia Bluetooth Stereo Headset BH-905, which Nokia also launched today. This headset brings crystal clear sound, eliminates background noise, and is the ideal accessory for listening to music and making calls on the Nokia N97, as well as being compatible with a diverse range of other mobile and music devices.

High-quality images and video clips at 30 frames per second (fps) can be captured using the 5 megapixel camera with integrated Carl Zeiss optics. Images can also be geo-tagged to specific locations and shared instantly with friends or uploaded online via Ovi Share, Twitter or Flickr.

It's Fcukin Expensive larr..Im sure i can't own it..boohoo..It cost lyke a thousand plus dollars? How can i afford it? save money? Wait till few Years more or what till my savings are enuff haha. Dream on, Natt.

That's all fer today!

Have a Nice Day!

Please come back...

2009-06-10T13:29:00.000+08:00

I miss you when something really good happens,

because you're the one i want to share it with.

I miss you when something is troubling me,

because you're the only one who understands me so well.

I miss you when i laugh and cry,

because i know you're the only one who

makes my laughter grow and my tears dissapear.

I miss you all the time,

but i miss you the most when i lie awake at night

and think of the wonderful times

we spent with each other for those were some of

the best memorable times of my life.

FIRDAUS BIN SANI.

You left me with no words, no calls and not even a message to your mum.

Im not strong to keep crying, worrying and thinking of where you have been.

Two days before you went M.I.A, you text me sayin that no matter what happens, you hope that we can stay together. Remembering those words kept me feeling curious and paranoid.

I tried all day calling and searching for you Fir, but even your love ones have no idea of where you are. Wherever you are Fir, please at least call or leave me a msg. I really(x100) hope that you are safe, fine, healthy 'there'. I really miss you that much. Please come back...

Love,

Natt.

Bad Mood!

2009-06-05T08:16:00.000+08:00

Hurgghh! Bad hair day, bad mood, obviouslay baadd daayy. Me myself i dun undrstnd y i gt easily pissed off and easily irritated be peeps arnd me today. Maybe due to my 'period' i guess..Oopss! Excuse me guys. Ok no point stating in detail of hu and wad im pissed off with.

Ouh god. Seriously was stressed out by upcoming exam this monday. WAD! Padan muke kaw Natt, lesson tak pay attention! Now den u wanna rush doing last min revisions. As usual..Hah! thanks to Azyan we squeezed in the time in the train to do a "lil" revision. Yes i did get some codes in ma head! I guess Azyan is a better teacher for me compared to Mr _______. O.o

Stressed larh seyy. Wth! "$myDate", "echo", "$_POST", "$another". Baahhhh..(Bang head against the wall).Praying to GOD for the best. All the best to BIT students for WAD exam!!

Btw, finished up ma sketches few days ago. And gals wud go..eeewwww..FREAK! Guys wud go cooool..Lol! (Look closely, the hands are the legs and the legs are the hands.)

Aniways!!! I MISS HYM!!

Me Miss Bukit Batok..

2009-05-31T18:36:00.000+08:00

Okae..dis post is fer 31 may actually..went fer Farina's bro weddin at bukit batok. Met bf at eunos. off to BB. Met Azza n Zee. sorry guys i was LATE. Hmm..like what zee says, last i met azza was 2 years ago i tink.. okae abt the weddin..Hell yarh we dun even noe most of the peeps there..haharkx! My reason going was becos its the oni chance i cd mit my sec sch frens. miss 'em sia. hah! they've been askin why shifted so far which is Bedok? lol! long story..We ate, talk, gossip n off we go! Next, chill around at Hafiz's hse area. hmm hafiz badan da macho seyy..While the brothers have their conversation, we gals gooo snap! =p

Japanese Names.

2009-05-15T11:30:00.000+08:00

In class now..and actually it has ended but just wastin tyme slackin. Hahs! We got notin betta to do soo we translate our names to japanase names. haha! Cute. Check out our names.

Nahtasya = Nafutashia

Nuratika = Nuraika

Azyan = Ayanu

Khadijah = Kudejafu

Firdaus = Furudeusu (Bf name.)

Gonna mit bf later on. Lots of stuff to do. arggh! Had to go jrg point and gotta grab stuffs. After that gotta go bendemeer and survey bikes. Next, we'll be headin to ECP gotta check out which part is best to book a pit for July. Kecoh per! 0kae..gtg. take care peeps! Enjoy your weekend! Btw, can't wait for tmrrw. Sentosa, here we come!! :D

The day i grew older.

2009-05-12T09:48:00.000+08:00

Firstly, today is the day i grew older and wiser. No special celebrations but im happy. Bf gotta werk today so cant go out wit hym. Went to school as per normal. And...thanks ika fer the choc n beautiful dress. i love it!Btw, got a hp as an advance bdae present from dad n an emphosis flip flops from mum. I didnt went home but went back to my second family's home. Heehee. Miss 'em alot. The great thing is, i learnt making fruit tarts! Easy n the ingredients are simple. I had fun making it! Thanks umi..Thats all for today.

Thanks people for those gifts and wishes! Love u all!

Its the thot that counts :D

Thanks alot Ika!

Out wit girlfrens.

2009-05-08T15:46:00.000+08:00

Friday was a blast..didnt went 2 sch..c0s ika n yan ask me not t0o..haha..Went out wit 'em. And f0r ur inf0, its my 1st tyme g0in 0ut wit these 2 gals..met yan at eun0s, 0ff t0 city hall n waited fer ika dere..We had 0ur breakfast+lunch cum dinner at LJS..(tngk badan!) The best part was..we have a habit g0ssippin abt 0thers in sch n g0t carried away dere..haha! We t0k+c0mment abt alm0st evry0ne..(haha jahat!)..it was me hu started the g0ssippin.

Natt: Eh Ika! tak kec0h per pakai long sleeve, tube dress ngan pants??

Ika: Huh?! Ape? Mane? (lookin arnd)

Natt: Nie pompan depan kaw..(whisperin)

Ika: ah2 siol kecoh per!

I swear we were laffin our ass out loud! Yan bz tokin on the fne..(mcm business women)

Ika.

Me.

Azyan.

Then 0ff tuhh peninsular. Bought nutin. Banyak 0rg tak perlu..all the typicals..Next was the Marina South Pier!! My 1st tyme dere. Beautiful. Took loads and loads of pictures. Blahaha. Had so much fun. We chill till arnd 8+. Actually thot of goin home at that tyme but azyan told us that someone offers to pick us up n send us home. So we waited till lyke 1 hr n p0of! Yan's predictions happened. Pity Yan. What happened nid not be explain in further detail. Just hope that the 'someone' learned from his mistakes and not bully my Azyan anymore. (I mean no harm yarh!)..

Thanks for reading! :D

Laziness.

2009-04-15T09:34:00.000+08:00

MALAS NAK UPDATE!!!

l0st my hp, s0 n0 pics 2 upl0ad..

(G0od luck fer ur prac awak..)

6 Months Together.

2009-02-18T17:26:00.000+08:00

1 m0re week..and it'll be 6 m0nths..

U've made me l0ve u,
u've made me hate u t0o.
U always make me laugh,
u always make me cry t0o.
U devel0p the trust,
u betrayed it t0o.

THIS IS WADD I WISH FR0M U BABY...

-Be m0re gentlemen.
-Be m0re carin. (Always c0ncern fer my whereab0uts. At least.)
-Be m0re supp0rting. (Enc0urage/motivate me in things i love t0 do..instead of critisizing.)
-Be realistic.
-Be some0ne who always sh0w loves.
-Be s0me0ne wh0 kn0ws h0w t0 c0ntr0l their temper.

This is just wadd i wish fr0m y0u. I didnt say that y0u are t0tally bad. It's just tt u tend t0 hurt me deeply sumtymes with0ut realising. I noe me myself did mistakes t0o. I n0e i've hurt u bef0re, deeply which i n0e u've ferget but never fergive.

But baby..
I w0nt be paran0id if im n0t a girl. I w0n't be a cry baby if u never hurt me. I w0n't start having 0ther guy if u d0nt hav any 0ther gal.

Lyke wadd u've always sae..GUYS WILL BE GUYS!
Den this is wadd i shall sae..GURLS WILL BE GURLS!

Fer all guys..
Gurls hav th0usands 0f meanings fer a werd..and..t0 y0u..a werd has 0nly 1 meaning..
(E.g if u say t0 y0ur gurl 'she's fat!'...she wud tink u hate her..she wud tink u might find 0ther gurl..she'll n0t ferget wadd u've said even if u're j0kin..)..s0o i suggest..tink bef0re u say anitin 2 a gurl aiite!..if u get wadd i meant..*Wynkk*

Pissed Off!

2009-02-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

I'm betta den ur EX!

May be betta den ur NEXT!

New Designs coming up!

Trademarks! :)

THANKS 4 H0PPIN!

What's in my head?

2009-01-10T14:45:00.000+08:00

LYFE.
I've been busy previ0usly...i werk as a pr0m0ter..hahah! great experienced th0..big m0neyy!! but big spend 0s0..hehehe..cudnt spend much tyme wit hym..frens..family..n s0o 0n..i werk fer 2 weeks straight nnn..n0 0ff!! frens bdae invitati0n all i cudnt attend..s0rry babes! especially my dearest zee!!..yeah! k0 tak marah ku!! syg k0!!

SK0OL.
B0000RRRiinnggg!!!..been slackin...results been bad..nn attendance dhe w0rse!! hehehe! dun ask miie b0ut dis..kip cumin late 2 sk0ol evridae! HABIT!! true tt tchers 0waes sae "tt habit will g0 0n in future if u never cut it 0ut fr0m n0w 0n!" AzYAN..she's 0s0 bein late as miee..bc0s 0f miee..she dun wanna g0 sko0l alone tts y...hmm in few daes tyme..dhe SH gonna c my face again! regular latec0mers!!..haish!! buckup NATT!! been sayin dis 2 maself dunn0e th0usands tymes...but..like i've said..HABIT!!

RELATI0NSHYP.
He's been s0o understanding, patient, caring, loving n fun...he treat me s0o well...but haish..im always dhe bad 0ne...s0rry dear fer all th0se pr0bs tt i've made..thank y0u fer bein s0o understanding...nn haish..we r havin s0me pr0bs..im s0o scared tt he's g0nna leave us..i mean me n hys family...theres a big chance tt he g0tta g0 DB! booh0o..goin DB is n0t fer awhile...0uh g0d..please dun separate us...i h0pe hys sergeant wud c0ver 0ne eye n giv hym a chance...baby please be gud 2 ur sergeant..i n0e NS lyfe sucks! BUT be patient..control ur anger...haish..ur anger hav always put u int0 tr0uble..n im s0o w0rried 0f hys health..he g0t dis sickness wic is a lil rand0m..wad m0re..he's allergic 2 some medication..i've always wish tt i cud take care 0f hym...awak..jangan luperr..kurangkan sm0kin tuhh..such an heavy sm0ker..bad..bad..n0tty!..hmm..its been 4 months plus n dis 25th..5 MONTHS T0GETHER!

OTHERS.
I miss my secondary sk0ol galfrens s0o much.

Bored.

2008-12-11T19:22:00.000+08:00

ASK MIIE 0UT PEEPS!!!

IT'S H0LS!!

EMPLOYERS??

ANIE 0FFERS??

= . =

Friendship.

2008-10-26T19:45:00.000+08:00

Friendships come and Friendships go

Like wave upon the sand

Like day and night

Like birds in flight

Like snowflakes when they land

But you and I are something else

Our friendship's here to stay

Like weeds and rocks

and dirty socks

It never goes away!

A friend is a person

to laugh and cry with,

An inspiration,

Someone who lends a helping hand,

though friends may not be forever,

And they may not end up together,

the memories of a true friendship will

last forever.

A friend is not a shadow nor a servant

But someone who hold

a piece of a person in his heart.

Someone who shares a smile,

Someone who brightens up your day

What makes a person a friend?

Is by saying your Love will stay.

By: Renee donna Bufete

Our 2nd month.

2008-10-25T20:03:00.000+08:00

~2 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY~

Paranoid.

2008-10-08T05:55:00.000+08:00

D0es HE really loves me??

Afraid 0f losin HYM..

Worried.

2008-10-08T05:02:00.000+08:00

HP CAN'T BE USE!

SP0ILED!

SAD!

IT DR0PPED INT0 A PAIL!

STUPID MIIE!

can't c0ntact hym!

1st month.

2008-09-25T16:48:00.000+08:00

T0dae...

IT'S SYAFIR'S 1 M0NTH ANNIVERSARY!

Aniwae..remember i've menti0n bef0re 0n my previ0us p0st that im g0nna upl0ad pictures 0f me at my childh0od tymes?

HERE U G0...

miie..
im dhe 0ne wit dhe red scarf..

G0t t0 g0 every0ne! =)

Jalan-jalan.

2008-09-22T09:22:00.000+08:00

Hellos Pe0ple!!!!!!!!!! HaHa!! yarh yarh i n0e u guys have been c0mplainin 0f me n0t updatin..u n0e wadd's dhe ans g0nna be..IM T0O LAZY T0 UPDATE MY BL0G!..hehe..d0n't ever expect frequent update 0f dis bl0g alryte..t0 me, dis bl0g 0f mine is jus 4 me t0 express my feelins..s0..i dun really mind if n0 0ne is readin..BUT..i'll appreciate it if they did!..thanx readers!..mmuax!..n after readin leave a tag 0tays!..hehe..

0kae lyke i've mention..im g0nna express my feelins..wenever i hav pr0blems..dis is dhe wae i release 0ut my stressness..dis few daes im s0 FCUKED UP 0f myself..0f whatever i did..i dunn0e..evrytin i did seems t0 be wr0ng t0 evry0ne..especially my parents n hym..im s0rry..(c0ntr0lling my tears)..i am thankful that dey still love me n understand me..my parents hav been quarellin..m0re stress added wen dey seems t0 get evry0ne inv0lve..i was asked 2 help but ended up i was inv0lved n g0t sc0lded all dhe tyme..i jus hav 2 be patient since its fasting mnth..aiy0y0..Hari Raya c0min s0on but dis is wadd happen..haish..0h g0d..please help me 2 be str0nger..s0 that i cud change evrtin 2 make it better..n 4 u my dear..im s0rry 0f dhe attitude that i haf..n i love u 0kae..

0uh yarh..i went east c0ast park that dae 0n dhe 15th..0vernyte..slackin..wit my siblings n 0ur c0uples..n0tin much..we played candles..sparkles..we played p0ol..n we played dis 'arcade' thingy..im n0t sure 0f what it's called..its a machine that we haf 2 insert 1 buck..den c0ntr0l it 2 grab a teddy..haha..hpe u guys g0t what i meant..it was kinnda addictin as dhe teddy were s0 cute..Bel0w are s0me pictures 0f dem n us..n sumtin actually happened 2 hym..badluck dae 4 hym..sad..he actually was s0 mad n cudnt c0ntinue dhe dae..but hmm..4 me, he hide his dissap0intment n tryin 2 act as if n0tin had happen..smile al dhe wae..he didnt wan 2 sp0il dhe dae..but deep inside i n0e that he's n0t happy..tts 0ne thing tt i luv b0ut hym.. =)

TAKIN CARE =)

SyaFir.

2008-09-12T00:13:00.000+08:00

I always tried to know you,and wanted to make something of us,I never knew what to do,I was immature and in a rush,We slowly became friends,and then you were the closest to my heart,Until these unexplained feelings start,I was always so confused,Of the love I had for another,But you I didn't want to lose,Then I started to feel something more,But I was so confused about the feeling,A couple of times I walked out the door,Because my heart still needed healing,All of a sudden I wanted me and you,I wanted us to be one,The love I held inside when I looked in your eyes,And to share my feelings for you,I knew I loved you so much that day,But still never said I love you, too,Finally, I really had to share,The love that was in my heart,To hold inside I couldn't bare,That's when we really start,We've grown close to one another,and you mean more than anything,I h0pe that we will last forever,and not that forever that's just a fling,I mean the never ending love,The way I feel right now,I want to spend life until sent above,with you no matter how....

Busy.

2008-08-31T18:58:00.000+08:00

SORRY BL0G H0PPERS!!

AIN'T G0NNA UPDATE MY BLOG TILL ALL IMP0RTANT STUFFS HAD BEEN D0NE!!

TAKKAIRE!!

ADI0S!!

Track and Field.

2008-08-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

Track N Field Competition

Didn't get 2 g0 sch0ol as there's c0mp 2dae at ITE Simei..early m0rnin meet up wit D0reen N Fahmi..s0rry Fahmi we're always late =(..kesian kaw evrytyme 2nggu..den me n d0reen was damn nerv0us n jus cudn't c0ntr0l it..reached there n actually i was n0t as nerv0us as d0reen at 1st c0s mine was supp0sed 2 be at arnd 2:30pm but skali last minute(again) teacher ask me run 200m s0 run wit d0reen..damn nerv0us at tt m0ment c0s i can't run n im n0t prepared at all..it was a rushed..yeah as expected i didn't w0n 0f c0urse..but i actually aimed 4 at least n0t 2 be in dhe last p0siti0n..n i tink im n0t dhe last..den we went 4 lunch..their sch0ol was s0o much better than 0urs l0rr..their f0od was nyce..aff0rdable price..n g0od facilities..they must be lucky..unlike us..

after lunch, ran 400m...n actualli d0reen n0t supp0sed 2 run 400m but i ask teacher put her name s0 tt she can run wit me..in dhe end, ended up she's in dhe diff heats..lols!..btw, she g0t 3rd!!..gud j0b n well d0ne galfren..=)..n b0ut me u d0nt b0ther 2 ask c0s dhe ans wud be as usual =(...but i dun really care c0s im n0t int0 track s0o yarh..i still lurve fl0orball..hehehhs..

b0th my frens did make dhe west pr0ud..Fahmi dhe best(of c0urse)..can't deny tt..

Here's s0me vide0 0f us=)

ENJ0YS!

dis was taken by d0reen.

T0O bad didn't get 2 take vide0 0f d0reen runnin..c0s evrytyme she run i 0s0 run..

ANIWAE...i gtg n0w..dis lappy is burnin..hehhehs..

take care evry0ne =)

Arab.

2008-08-18T19:56:00.000+08:00

Alryte am s0rry 4 n0t updating...lazy n n0tin 2 p0st ab0ut..0kae luhh actually dis p0st 0s0 n0tin..jus that n0tin 2 d0 s0o yarh..hehe..dis weekend didnt went back h0me c0s went slept 0ver my aunt's place..

Yarh n dis saturdae nyte, 'some0ne' text me arnd 12+..HAHAHAS i was already asleep by den..i didn't even 0n my ph0ne..yarh 'he' text me sayin that my signature l0oks familiar 2 'hym'..[0ni that pers0n n0es what i meant i guess]..hello!!..i guess i n0e what ur msg means 0kae!..u're jus tryin 2 sae that im c0pyin ur signature 0r waddever..excuse miie 'MR'..takm0 prasan 0kae..i get dhe s0urce/idea 0f that signature fr0m a graphic b0ok..aniwae u're n0t dhe 0ni 0ne hu hav that kind 0f signature??..n yes!! u r still disturbin miie n still tryin 2 get urself inv0lve in my lyfe..haish..g0 away larh y0u!!..

0kae larh waddever ab0ut 'hym'..0n sundae..have s0me fun m0ments wit my cuz...she actuallie t0ught me s0me arab phrases n its meanings..jus n0tin betta 2 d0 s0 i learned them l0rr..

Here's s0me arab phrases that i've learnt:

I LOVE YOU--- ana uhibbuka(f0r a guy) ana uhibbuki(f0r a gal)
MY NAME IS--- ismi
MAY I HELP YOU?--- ayyu khidmah?
OH NO, IM LATE--- ya ilahi taakhartu
I AM TIRED--- ana ta'baan
DO N0T SLEEP--- la tanam
THIS PLACE IS HOT--- hazar makan haar
THERE'S N0 PLACE T0 SEAT--- la ujad makan lil julus
LET'S G0 T0 THE CANTEEN--- hayya ilal math'am
IM S0RRY--- afwan
HAPPY BIRTHDAY--- lid mii lad sa'iid
THANK Y0U--- syukran
GO0D NIGHT--- wa anta min ahlih
SWEET DREAMS--- ah laam sai'idah

Hehehh..i n0e they're hard t0 pr0n0unce..even miie myself arab 0s0 can't pr0n0unce it well..hahas..niwae, ENJ0Y learnin it yeah.. =)

n 0s0 bel0w r s0me few pics 0f my aunt's ad0pted daughter =)...yesss!! she's damn ad0rable!..but she l0ok like me th0ugh..(wen im at her age luhh durhh!)..Maybe 1 dae i shud p0st 0ut n update dhe pics 0f me at my chilh0od tymes n u guys can c0mpare..seems like she had replace my 'place'..as im dhe 0ne hu was taken care 0f by my aunt wen im small..n yupp i regard my aunt as my 0wn m0ther..she t0ok care 0f me frm small till n0w..she treat me like her 0wn daughter..n i appreciate it s0o s0o much f0r what she had d0ne f0r me..everytin..f0r all dhe l0ve she had given miie =)..n i h0pe that 1 dae i cud repay her kindness in sum ways =)..(t0 ayah t0o)..lurve u all!

These is her pics..n her name is Madinah =)

My Past.

2008-08-12T10:30:00.000+08:00

I had gone thru s0o much wit 0r with0ut u..

all th0se meme0ries jus cudn't bring miie any gud..

Even it's jus f0r a sh0rt peri0d 0f tyme,

but u had put it int0 a such mem0rable m0ments..

and due 2 that it's hard fer miie 2 ferget evrytin..

i jus cudn't get u 0ut 0f my head..

Realising that u d0n't even CARE!..

I've decided 2 0verc0me evrytin and ferget eiu..

AND yes..i was able to get 0ver you and had m0ved 0n..

and i realised that it feels s0o much better n0t 2 think 0f you..

BUT todae!! y0u bring back all th0se SHITS to miie.

What dhe FCUK is ur intenti0n 0f d0ing all dis 2 miie?

todae u text miie after s0 l0ng..

Tryin 2 restart evrytin that i had f0rg0tten..

U'll 0nli find miie whenever u're sad 0r feelin l0nely..

U'll ferget 0f miie wenever u're happie..

What f0r waste ur tyme f0r miie when u have "her" all dis while?!

All i can say is d0n't you even think 0f blaming miie when i cudn't wait..

I jus wana make things clear..

D0n't even think 0f cumin back 2 miie..

D0 FERGET miie and

PLEASE d0n't disturb miie anym0re..

C0s i'm n0t lyke 0ther gals wh0m u can make 'em lyke ur d0ll..

I'll appreciate it if u cud make my lyfe easier..Thanx..

[u shud n0e hu u r]

Floorball.

2008-08-09T22:53:00.000+08:00

G0ne for fl0orball t0urnaments last tuesdae n thursdae..we did very badly..expected aniwae..my team is dhe beginners kind 0f team..made up 0f oni 9 ppl =(..we were send n0t 2 win but 4 us 2 gain experience n learn m0re..tuesdae dhe sc0re was 10-1..n thursdae it was 5-1..yeah we l0se..but we tried 0ur best..

but ahuhh..i was happie tt i cud sc0re 4 my team on thursdae..1st tyme in my lyfe..wen i sc0red dhe sc0re was 2-1 n at tt tyme i realli th0t tt we cud catch up but hhhhrrrrggghhh!! My team mate wic is dhe team leader g0t injured n cudn't c0ntinue..s0o it's kindda hard 4 us 2 catchup with0ut her..c0s i tink she played an imprtnt r0le in 0ur team..

n yarh i really envied dhe wae 0ur skewl's team 2 gals played..u g0 gals!!..gud luck 4 ur next match!!

but waddever it is we had fun after all..i jus h0pe tt we cud d0 betta 4 dhe next t0urnaments..

adi0s ; )

2008-08-03T19:05:00.000+08:00

0kae ppl!!! im s0o damn s0rrie..i didn't update my bl0g 4 l0ng..

n since i've already upl0ad dis pics 4 long s0o i'll jus continue..

i met KinKin at eun0s mrt n i'm late. Went Takashimaya mit my m0m first den mit D0Reen, Sophia n Martini at Bugis.S0RRy i was late. We went Haji Lane 2 wind0w sh0p n find place 2 eat. It was my 1st tyme dere. Hahas. i find dhe sh0ps dere quite interesting. h0pe 2 g0 dere again sumdae. We went PLUCK 2 hav s0me ice cream. nyce l0r dhe ice cream. dhe person dere t0o.hehe..i dun relli rmbr wadd happened..STM. i tink aftr tt went suntec n we play wit the water at 1 of dis f0untain..childish! but we had fun th0..=)

MYSELF CAMWH0RING =)

c0c0lalat (chinese versi0n =)..)
she's on dhe fne n d0in s0me stunts?lols!
em0-ing??

me n Sophia..
Wadd r u guys l0okin at huhh?
reen being EM0..

prom0ter wannabe?
s0rry..i 4get his name..ok Martin! =)

PLUCK at Haji Lane.
slurrpss..

Shikin st0p l0okin at tt H0T guy...haha..n0 0ffence!

tasting tyme!!! =)
what i ordered..lol!

waffle wit ice cream =)
simply chocolate wit almonds
Sophia..nyce kn0win her..
she's bz takin ppl's pic n i t0ok her's..lols!

street arts..=)
miie n KinKin..
dearest galfren..

i'm reading magazine l0r..

2008-08-01T16:51:00.000+08:00

BAD M0OD BAD M0OD BAD M0OD

2Dae early in dhe m0rnin evritin already seems tuhh be wr0ng..BAD M0OD BAD MO0D BAD M0OD!..skewl was damn b0rinkk 2dae..wen back h0me early..haiy0h..wadd's wr0ng wit us man??..jus cudn't st0p dhe c0nflicts between each 0ther..after that thing's settled..an0ther came by..

it's tt b0rinkk 2dae tt i actully hav n0tin t0 p0st ab0ut..

H0pefully tmr saturdae wud be a betta dae..n0 plans fer tmr..g0 0ut any0ne??..Beep miie if u've g0t ani plans yaw!!

adi0s!

2008-07-31T23:54:00.000+08:00

Yeeeeehaaaaaaa!!..my G0D!! it takes ages fer miie tuhh create a new bl0g..at last im d0ne wit it..

aitez im gonna start p0sting..

on dis first p0st 0f mine, i wanna br0ught up 1 issue..t0dae had a t0k wit Mr Faris b0ut s0me current c0nflict case bet us and 1 0f my classmate wh0 had 0waes been M.I.A lately..haish..i've realised tt dis c0nflict is actually a small matter but it end up blablahblah..tuhh make things CLEAR!..CRI0US FCUK I ACTUALLY HAVE N0 ILL INTENTI0Ns 2WARDS EIU..wadd m0re wit ur frens tt i think hav g0t n0tin 2 d0 in dis matter..but haish..i understnd tt as frens they hav their right..but heyy dis is actually m0re tuhh a misunderstandings..f0r the sake 0f Mr Faris, i just wanna st0p all dis and f0cus 0n what's much m0re imp0rtant..I H0PE tt U WENT M.I.A N0T BC0S 0F DIS MATTER..n0w i think i've d0ne wadd i hav 2 by explainin 2 u 0f wadd i tink..n it's n0w up 2 u 2 st0p dis c0nflicts 0r rather c0ntinue let it remain uns0lved..

0k0k..i'm actually upset n really2 cudn't get it why u guys r n0t happy wit miie 0r much m0re betta, HATE miie??..yayarh waddeva it is IM S0RRY 0K IF I DID ANITIN WR0NG.[even th0ugh i n0e i'm inn0cent =( ]..

i h0pe that my lyfe cud be betta..